I am a Banker in my early 30s and going through a messy divorce. I married my husband as a virgin.
I have never been with any man until I was raped.
I didn’t know anything about orgasm, climax or what have you because I have never experienced it before. 8 years of marriage with a miserable sex life.
I have two children from my marriage.
It happened that we traveled to my husband’s village during the last Easter period.
While in his country home by 1 am in the night our house was raided by a gang of 7 armed robbers.
It was a terrifying experience, after collecting all the valuables at home, the leader turned to rape me.
The leader tied my husband to a chair, tore my clothes and went on to show me his manhood that he will use it on me.
I was frightened. I begged him and cried but he wouldn’t listen.
It was a rape that cost me my marriage.
As the guy was entering me, I was supposed to feel pains but that wasn’t so.
I felt a kind of electrifying sensation that I have never felt in my whole life.
I screamed oh my God, as he started pounding on me I didn’t know when I was holding him hard and begging him not to stop to the amazement of others, I was enjoying being raped by a criminal.
I was told that I was screaming very hard as he was making love to me.
Yes, I had my first orgasm through rape and since then my life hasn’t been the same. The robbers turn on me in whom I scream all through.
I don’t know what came over me, maybe it was my village people that manipulated me, but all I can say is that I haven’t had much experience with my husband.
My husband gave me the beatings of my life after they armed robbers left. He called me unprintable names like a prostitute, he said he didn’t know I am an ‘ashawo’ and he can’t have an ‘ashawo’ as a wife.
I was hospitalized for two weeks as a result of that incident and his beatings. My husband left me at the hospital and travelled back to Lagos. I was damaged. How could he do such a thing to me?
What was responsible for me to enjoy being raped?
How could I even enjoy such act of cruelty on my body?
These were questions I kept asking myself. When I got discharged from the hospital, I met a divorce papers waiting for me to sign. I tried begging my husband, involved my parents but he swore instead of staying with me he will rather die.
He said that I am a disgrace to his life.
My husband is a rich guy, so when our divorce news broke out, while I was denying it, he kept telling everyone one that I am a whore. It took me months to accept my predicament and move on. I am still in the process of healing, still seeing my therapist.
But one thing I know is that I am not what my husband says I am. I am just a woman who was sexually starved. I did not pray to be raped, but it was the turning point of my life.
I just feel like sharing this with you my family because it will help me. Please, don’t judge me, because you don’t know my pains. By January I will be through with the divorce. I just want you all to wish me well in my new life. I pray to find Love in the nearest Future.
Source: Daily Family